Okay so firstly i'd just like to point out how little my expectations are of this blog, that i generally dont think anyone will read it and ill just be happy if i see one person reads it. But anyhow the whole idea of writing a blog is to keep up with it so that is hopefully what ill do.

The thing about my life is that its up and down. I have amazing moments that i could easily write about in a way which makes it sound so interesting. I have my bad days which i can moan about for England, and then i have my content days: unfortunatley i appear to be going through a rather long content stage at the moment, iv got the guy, iv finnished collage, im simply doing what i please whenever i want. It's not very thrilling and i hope you dont get bored. But all i can do is write my blog the way i see life, and hope thats enough.

So i guess this moment is called the blip, the summer months between collage and university. I cant really explain what im feeling right now, i mean its excitement without a doubt, and god im glad iv finnished at sixth-form (its so strange iv spent 7 years at that place forming my own little family and when the time came to walk out, i simply walked without even looking back, as far as im concerned my real friends will stay with me and anyone else i simply dont give a crap about anymore, i never thought id say that, didnt even cry!) Yet i dont want to go yet, iv just started such an amazing phaze in my life (with Richard the new guy) and everythings so shiny and rosy, and the only thing that can tarnish it is me leaving for uni in september. However i am only going to leeds which is like 45 minutes away its no big deal right?

Richard is like a total bad guy, but a complete good guy in desguise. It's proper wierd cos iv never actually
been out with a bad boy before, its always been posh little poncy guys and iv always wanted a bad guy deep down. Well when i say bad guy what i really mean is he was into drugs (well to name them Es speed and weed no coke, crack or heroin) well he was until i put a stop to it. Hes been done for stealing and he used to smoke (again until i put a stop to it). Now you may think so what thats hardly unusual but its like foreign to me, i only ever date good boys and i wouldnt even contemplate dating a smoker in the past, although Richard doesnt even smoke anymore so its hardly like i do now...

Even the way we got together was bad! Far more badass than any other romance iv ever had before. My ex Daryl was treating me like a nob, i never knew where i stood with him, and it broke my heart on many occasions, but then Richard came along gave me a pat on the back and told me i deserved much much better, i could get any guy i wanted and to give Daryl a kick up the arse from him. This i did literally, as well as teasing him about how "richard would be a much better boyfriend". I wanted Daryl to be jelouse, i didnt actually want Richard, hed of been a rubbish boyfriend, i figured all he was after was a shag and he was a total badass, no not for me. Nevertheless i carried on and teased him, and flirted with Richard infront of him, it was hardly the nicest thing to do, then slowly i actually found the whole experiance rather dangerous and exhilerating. We began flirting when Daryl wasnt even around, swapped numbers and sent seedy text messages. Then one night (my prom night to be exact) it happened we bumped and grinded on the dancefloor and went outside for a chat (i generally wanted to talk to him to tell him that i wasnt gona end something deep for some kinda sexual bollocks) but we ended up kissing and it was amazing. The sadest thing is i didnt feel guilty at all, and i have never even contemplated the idea of cheating in the past. I hate the thought of being thought of as "once a cheater always a cheater". Although i didnt want to end it with Daryl for the sexual thing i had with Richard i guess my concience wouldnt allow it and i ended it two days later. Which was also the same day that Richard told me hed fallen for me. So i guess it all seems to have worked out brilliantly in the end, except from the fact that theres always tension at work whenever theyre both working (just for the bennifit practically everyone in my life works at McDonalds).

Yet appearences can be decieving and it didnt take long for me to realise that Richard's badass thing was hardly his only side. Firstly he gave up the drugs and is still trying his little arse of to stop smoking (which he claims is because he wouldnt ever want to upset me) secondly he showed me his house (which for the record has 6 bedrooms and 6 bathrooms) 3rd he introduced me to his parents (who are soo welcoming and friendly and just amazing) and 4th his budgie:Pepsi (when youve seen a man with his kissing a budgie any bad boy impressions that may exist instantly vanish, and 5th and finally he became my boyfriend . He is litterally the best boyfriend i have ever had, he treats me like a princess, hes simply effortlessly perfect but whilst still holding on to that cheeky cocky confident side i love so much in lads. What started off as just being a bit of fun over the summer has now become a serious relationship and i dont know how im gona cope when he goes on holiday for 3 weeks next tuesday (3 bloody weeks its just plain greedy) never mind when i go to uni in like 8 .

My life is like split into 4 parts at the moment (i guess uni will become the 5th but until then.. its family, work at McDonalds, the boyfriend and the friends). My family are like totally hilarious when theyre not doing my head in, proper yokshire people you know, and im not ashamed to say that i actually enjoy going for the odd drink with my paps on a sunday night. Work is like soo blergh if im not getting shouted at by chavs im getting burnt on the grill its a win-win situation. However i guess i owe my past year to that place, as iv made so many friends, had so many awesome nights out and erm had 2 boyfriends from the place.. its become my social life which is kinda sad. But i seriously have learnt so much, work is just a mixture of all kinds of people and id never have guessed it but 9 out of 10 of them are awesome. Its tought me not to be judgemental or shallow, which i so was a year ago, and to be honest my work pals are generally so much better than my snooty shallow judgemental collage pals. My bezzies Becca and Emma also work there thats how i got the job, so to be quite Frank work isnt really that bad, not really considering. Becca and Emma are like your typical lasses and the only people who truly know me.

Anyhows theres a little bit of my life, ill write later but i best be off cos Richards coming round soon
toodles
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